Lockette ❤︎

For the past couple of
months, I’ve been living
at Family Nirvana.

Dysfunction, malice,
and lack was scarce
for a while.

And sense of belonging
bloomed like a flower
within that place.

I didn’t have time to
face and heal from
emotions that were
deep inside.

I left mother.

She wasn’t herself
at the time.

I cried.

My father died.

And I cried again.

Everyone here at
Family Nirvana was
sweet and caring,

all packed in the
same house like
a can of sardines.

I found myself
blending into the
family dynamic
only to shrink
back because of
feeling out of place.

Like a foreigner in a
new and beautiful
country.

My silence did bring
misunderstanding
and contempt from
within and without
but clarity all the
same.

Good things do come
to an end but then
they began again.

Family Nirvana was
almost a safe haven
for me.

But cursed are those
who put their trust in
men.

And cursed are those
who forget God.

I’m no ordinary person
and because of that I
noticed things Family
Nirvana didn’t see.

And I was affected in
ways they didn’t
understand.

Happiness is fleeting
just like a dream.

And I’m okay with that.

I’m no ordinary person
and because of that I
noticed things Family
Nirvana didn’t see.

And I was affected in
ways they didn’t
understand.

Life is more than what
we eat and wear.

Life is more than just living
in our own false paradigms.

And from birth we are taught
to waste our life.

We’ve been misled and not
educated on what’s true
when it comes to life.

And because of that,
Family Nirvana was
nothing more than
just a daydream.

Date: 03/21/26